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Elsen again — I’d need to “apologize” bc when I was away at college I didn’t have a job, and so I would use my parents’ money to buy useless stuff (I started collecting vintage toys like crazy because there were a lot) to play up the whole “daydreamer/eccentric/permanent child” archetype. I must have spend at least $500 over the last three years. They’re paying all my hospital bills and stuff and here I was buying junk bc “that’s just the way I am” and it’s not even the way I *actually* am…

Well, here is my advice. We all do stupid things in our youth. Its a period of finding yourself, and learning who you are- for…

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so uh a few days ago i think i awakened as an Elsen from OFF and it explains SO much about myself, but the thing is it also means that a huge chunk of my “personality” was just a front so people didn’t see my (extremely dull and persuadable) inner self, and now i’m flipping back and forth between denial and acceptance because on one hand i feel so -right- accepting it but on the other this will offput a lot of people because i’ve been acting as “the outgoing eccentric” for a decade. advice?

I feel conflicted in the advice I should give you, my friend, so I’m afraid I may not be as helpful as you might wish.…

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