old tumblr postsDecember 26, 2014

do you have advice on finding out one’s specific fictionkintypes? i’ve known that i’m someone from OFF (game) for a while now but i just can’t tell who.

Definitely meditation and self reflection. There comes a limit to what outside material can tell you about yourself. Its possible you aren’t even one of…

old tumblr postsNovember 17, 2014

Elsen again — I’d need to “apologize” bc when I was away at college I didn’t have a job, and so I would use my parents’ money to buy useless stuff (I started collecting vintage toys like crazy because there were a lot) to play up the whole “daydreamer/eccentric/permanent child” archetype. I must have spend at least $500 over the last three years. They’re paying all my hospital bills and stuff and here I was buying junk bc “that’s just the way I am” and it’s not even the way I actually am…

Well, here is my advice. We all do stupid things in our youth. Its a period of finding yourself, and learning who you are- for…

old tumblr postsNovember 16, 2014

Elsen again — no, the thing is… I don’t know how familiar you are with “OFF” but Elsen aren’t very… “exciting.” Basically they kinda just take orders. And I’m starting to realize that the main reason I act so vocally eccentric is because people have always told me that it’s “better to stand out.” I don’t -like- standing out! I’m just doing it because I’m “supposed” to. So either way I’m still taking orders… I just feel like a decade plus of misconceptions is too much to apologize for.

I don’t really see what you have to apologize for, personally. But then, I don’t really see a way out of your situation either. I…

old tumblr postsNovember 15, 2014

so uh a few days ago i think i awakened as an Elsen from OFF and it explains SO much about myself, but the thing is it also means that a huge chunk of my “personality” was just a front so people didn’t see my (extremely dull and persuadable) inner self, and now i’m flipping back and forth between denial and acceptance because on one hand i feel so -right- accepting it but on the other this will offput a lot of people because i’ve been acting as “the outgoing eccentric” for a decade. advice?

I feel conflicted in the advice I should give you, my friend, so I’m afraid I may not be as helpful as you might wish.…