I went through an awakening and I have several memories from my canon, so in my mind my kintype is pretty well cemented. But I feel like I see much more of “myself” in another character from another fandom, if that makes sense. They’re so much more like me than the character whose memories I have. Is this common? It feels weird and I feel out of place identifying as the character I awakened as, knowing there’s another one out there who seems much more like me.

It can be hard to understand and accept, but your kintype isn’t always the person who has the most in common with who you are right now.

As  spiritual kin, for me, my kintype is who I was, and my identity has moved on from there, and grown. You’re not quite the same as your kintype, for the same reason you’re not the same person as you were when you were five.

There are plenty of characters I identity with much more than Ken Ichijouji, like Lydia from Beetlejuice, or Sawyer from Lost but I’m not kin with either of them. For me kin is not who I feel the closest to, or who I can understand best (thought psycological kin may disagree with me). My kintype/identity is an immutable fact of who I was. Its the person who ended up adding to who I am now. 

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