[K1]Saw your post on multiverse stuff. Truth be told, I almost didn’t write this. Private doesn’t even begin to describe this stuff, and yet here I am, albeit on anon. I don’t know why I keep it so hidden, though. Every now and again it leaks into my fiction, but I stamp out the threads pretty quickly. Had I seen your post many years ago, I probably would have passed it off as just being one of those things that resonates with people for some reason, like the structure of the hero’s journey.

[K2]What bigger, more exciting stakes were there than multiversal danger? Heck, even I, a non-kin, had many thoughts about it… well, guess who eventually ended up identifying. Yeah. So here I am, spilling my tale (in what is probably a poor maneuver on my part, but I’m too emotionally exhausted to care right now.) Rough cut of it is: multiverse stuff? Yes.

[K3]Grand overarching danger? Kinda. It’s more like habitat changes by invasive plants than anything actively malicious or outright destructive. I mean yeah, there are a few entities that took advantage of the situation, and really the catalyst for the problem can be pretty much entirely blamed on pretty much two or three entities, but this is no army or wildfire. More like the guy who introduced starlings to the states because Shakespeare mentioned them.

[K4]Extra-temporal agency working to fight (or in this case, fix) it? Again, kinda. I’m only aware of a decently small team. Like, 30 members tops. Maybe there were other groups, maybe even some really big ones, but they never contacted the team I’m aware of. Perhaps their benefactors (either side of the equation) steered them apart for efficiency’s sake or something.

[K5]Agree with you on this being the “down-time” universe. Definitely not contaminated. There are plenty of versions of it that are, though. This particular cluster of timelines has always been pretty close, for whatever reason, to the cluster that the problem originated in, so its not surprising that we got hit with a lot of shrapnel. I don’t know if fiction is an echo of this or just coincidence, that out of billions of ideas some happen to line up to things elsewhere.

[K6]I’ll say this, though; the life I have now? Definitely the life old me would have wanted. Some days I almost feel like its atonement, like I care so much because I’m trying to cancel out what I did before, to make up for what I couldn’t do before. Or rather, can’t do right now.

[K7]For as much as I refer to it as “old me,” I find that “other me” fits better. As if we started as the same person, but in two places, each aware of what the other is doing, if only subconsciously at times. But, two places means two sets of experiences, physical and mental, and eventually we diverged. Radically. Suddenly. Irreversibly. You don’t often find these ideas even in the community, though, so I keep them quiet. Especially since I ascribe scant little spirituality to it.

[K8]I guess the core of what I wanted to say is that an alternate version of myself is currently helping a small team in clearing up (or at least limiting the damage of) multiversal contamination across a variety of timelines. But it’s hard to come right out and say that sort of thing, even among these sorts of communities. And even harder when you’re so used to secrecy in general. Now that the line is open, though, I will respond to future queries, if any.

[K9]If you need to address me, you can refer to me as K, or K-squad if you need to be more specific for any reason. I’m ok with this, or any correspondence between us being published, particularly since I’m almost certainly never coming off of anon. I wish you a good day, and many thanks for your blog. (I also apologize for exploding your inbox)

Inbox explosion forgiven! this is quite the missive though. Truth be told I am still processing it as I write this!

I had a feeling that I’d strike a chord with some people- even people who are still enmeshed in whatever this is. I’m glad to get in contact.

I definitely agree with you about this being the like the ‘other you’ would have wanted, and I second the feeling of atonement. When I was younger especially I felt like I was hear almost as a ‘punishment’, but now it feels again, like I was ‘benched’ in a sport. Like I’m resting up for another round.

It IS hard to open up about these things, and thank you for doing so. You’ve given me, and I’m sure others, lots to think about.

I’ll probably add more to this later, so stay tuned for reblogs.