(1/2) Hi! First off, I reallyreally love your blog a lot. You’re incredibly well articulated and have brought up topics that I’ve never even considered before. I had an inquiry myself, and you may possibly have answered something similar in the deep recesses of your blog, but… Gonna go for it anyway. I have a lot of discomfort surrounding my death and how the fandom depicts it. The common and widely excepted theory is that it was intentional suicide on my part, and I was doing it because

(2/2) I wanted to protect the others and give them a warning, and that I was so smart and chose to take my own way out because I knew that I wouldn’t make it. In reality (or at least, from my memories), it was totally unintentional and just a really unfortunate mistake on my part. So when everyone runs around insisting that I “was so smart and took my fate into my own hands,” I get kind of uneasy. I don’t want to invalidate other’s head canons, but I’m not sure how I should deal with this.

Ouch. This sounds like a rough position to be in, both in your fictionkin life and this one.

I know it an be frustrating to see when a fandom’s idea of the way your life went, and your memories don’t mesh. There’s always an urge to correct them, or at least a feeling of cringing and going ‘no, that isn’t right’, because it doesn’t sit right with you.

What you need to remember is that although your life and your story are very important to you, for others, its just that, a story, with multiple different interpretations. Not only that, but, at least in my personal belief, there are many worlds and many realities. There may well be a version of ‘you’ from your past who DID do those things intentionally.

Basically, my advice whenever this comes up, whether its nasty porn, or obnoxious fan theories, is just to ignore it as much as you can. Blacklist it if you have to. In my experience the morass of charging in and arguing is never worth the heartache it casuses.