so uh a few days ago i think i awakened as an Elsen from OFF and it explains SO much about myself, but the thing is it also means that a huge chunk of my “personality” was just a front so people didn’t see my (extremely dull and persuadable) inner self, and now i’m flipping back and forth between denial and acceptance because on one hand i feel so -right- accepting it but on the other this will offput a lot of people because i’ve been acting as “the outgoing eccentric” for a decade. advice?

I feel conflicted in the advice I should give you, my friend, so I’m afraid I may not be as helpful as you might wish. On the one hand, I do advise everyone to be themselves, and embrace their inner nature. If embracing your acceptance feels right, then I would advise it.

On the other hand, a new life presents us with new chances to grow. If you have a chance for a richer, more meaningful internal existence now, perhaps you should chase it? They say ‘fake it until you make it’. Perhaps acceptance is so hard because you are now more than you once were?